Reality Strikes Again!!!

Am I a man or a machine?

Can I not have emotions?

Why is it difficult to understand me?

Understand my feelings and their erosions…

Have I ever forced anyone

To go against their heart?

Why then do I suffer this fate

That too from people close to my heart?

Why is it my fault always

And never an understanding from their side?

Why, in spite of living with people I love

To cry, I cover my face and hide?

Some relations I nurtured with love and care,

And today those relations have pushed me away;

To them, I have shared my life as an open book

But now they are but happy when I am away…

They go off to places, and never ask a word

They arrive at conclusions without hearing my part

They call me selfish, and curse me from their heart

They close their doors, and through me apart

The relations I nurtured with love and care

And held close to my heart;

Those very relations are away from me

And I am alone, as I was in the start!

The saddest part is looking across

And finding a loved and nurtured relation,

Throw me away from his life

As a dirt, a curse, a despised creation!

When that very relation was my support

My pillar in times of agony and trouble,

A friend who knows everything about me,

An umbrella to rain and stones’ rumble!

A person who knew me before I spoke

Who understood me as my friends back home;

Whose side, I didn’t leave come whatever may,

Even he knows that for him I sustained in a ‘dome’!

Everyone have their reasons for whatever they do,

But I would have never told him to bow for me,

I know how it is when you are insulted

But you can do nothing, and let it be!

I thought at least he would support me,

He would understand what made me react,

And would be my side at all times

This I believed as God, as any real fact!

My hallucination is broken, and I am awake

And for him, I will even bow!

Maybe, someday, he will appreciate me for this,

And in this I will believe; through whatever; ‘somehow’!!!