Am I a man or a machine?
Can I not have emotions?
Why is it difficult to understand me?
Understand my feelings and their erosions…
Have I ever forced anyone
To go against their heart?
Why then do I suffer this fate
That too from people close to my heart?
Why is it my fault always
And never an understanding from their side?
Why, in spite of living with people I love
To cry, I cover my face and hide?
Some relations I nurtured with love and care,
And today those relations have pushed me away;
To them, I have shared my life as an open book
But now they are but happy when I am away…
They go off to places, and never ask a word
They arrive at conclusions without hearing my part
They call me selfish, and curse me from their heart
They close their doors, and through me apart
The relations I nurtured with love and care
And held close to my heart;
Those very relations are away from me
And I am alone, as I was in the start!
The saddest part is looking across
And finding a loved and nurtured relation,
Throw me away from his life
As a dirt, a curse, a despised creation!
When that very relation was my support
My pillar in times of agony and trouble,
A friend who knows everything about me,
An umbrella to rain and stones’ rumble!
A person who knew me before I spoke
Who understood me as my friends back home;
Whose side, I didn’t leave come whatever may,
Even he knows that for him I sustained in a ‘dome’!
Everyone have their reasons for whatever they do,
But I would have never told him to bow for me,
I know how it is when you are insulted
But you can do nothing, and let it be!
I thought at least he would support me,
He would understand what made me react,
And would be my side at all times
This I believed as God, as any real fact!
My hallucination is broken, and I am awake
And for him, I will even bow!
Maybe, someday, he will appreciate me for this,
And in this I will believe; through whatever; ‘somehow’!!!
2 comments:
everyone feel like this at some point of time... anyways nice one...
ITS PAINFUL FOR ME WHEN OTHERS BEHAVE MECHANICALLY....STILL ITS BETTER TO BE MECHANICAL AT SOME POINT OF OF LIFE ..DOES IT MAKE ANY SENCE TOYOU??
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