Lost in Front of The Fear of Death!!!

Like a dark cloud engulfing the sky,

The light of life was getting dimmer;

The past episodes played back in my mind,

The difference between life and death was getting slimmer!

In spite of living for so many years,

I felt as if I had not lived at all,

I could remember everything that happened with me,

Suddenly life looked so small!

To gather courage I applied my mind

To find a reason to happily die;

To reason out the fear associated with death

And emanate courage from truths or lie!

Life is a journey, a river flowing by;

Death is a destination where the river meets the ocean!

I do not understand why the ocean looks fearful;

It is but us only, Almighty’s creation.

We separate from that ocean as droplets of water,

And land on a body where we see life

Hence our journey should always be towards reaching that ocean again

In reality, it is that for which we strive.

All the reasons sounded so good;

Everything made me feel intelligent and smart

However, in the back of my mind

How I hoped I could go back to the start!

All reasoning failed in front of the harsh truth,

And the truth was that I did not want to die,

I wanted to live, for life, for love,

And everything else was a farce, a lie!

I remembered my mother’s warm hug

Every time I succeeded in whatever small way;

I wanted to lie in her lap and cry,

I wanted to be with her every single day!

I remembered my father, his bold strong voice;

And how he always stood as the strongest pillar of our life

His guiding hand in every endeavor we ventured into;

His concern even when we handled a small knife!

I remembered my sister, my support in everything

How she stands by my side in pranks and success

How she smiles when I fall, and teaches me to get up on my own;

I wanted to tell her that I loved her, which I might have told so less!!!

I remembered my dreams, of big aims and success;

Of a huge car, a huge house, an enormous life!

And how I also planned to realize those dreams;

But always failed when it came, for it, to strive!

How I hoped I had not done the mistakes that I did,

How I hoped that everything in life would be good!

I feared looking back at all that I had done,

I feared to see life from where I stood!

I only realized how foolish people are

When they say they want to die,

Because when it comes to seeing death on its face

The dreadful flash shuts your eye!

I realized it’s not a joke to stand at the edge,

It’s not a joke to see death in the eye!

It’s not a joke to see life slipping away from your hand,

It’s not a joke to see the end nearby.

I just hoped for a second chance,

To correct all that that I had done wrong!

So that at least if I meet God Almighty,

I can hold my ground, and stand strong!!!